Yesterday was the Free Festival in Almere. OMG. Thousands of Dutch people, different stages, DJ's, different types of music, lots of alcohol and a whole lotta dancing. Way too much fun.
Today is Luna's 6th birthday. Marielle invited me to go to dinner with them but I don't feel like sitting around listening to everyone speak Dutch and hardly understanding a damn thing. Speaking of Marielle, she's out of a job. My schedule is totally messed up now, and I don't particularly like it. She's had a couple of interviews already and hopefully she finds something soon.
In much more exciting news - I have a trip booked to Dublin and Barcelona July 30-August 10. I cannot wait, I just really hope I'm able to save enough money by that time. But hey, at least my flights are paid for. Selby and Kirsty will be accompanying me, and hopefully we will be couchsurfing and meeting some amazing individuals along the way.
I've been really confused as of late. Do I go back to Canada in September, and stay there for good? Get a shitty dead end job or attempt to figure out my career? Go back to school? Go back to being miserable like I was before? Or perhaps this year of living abroad will make things different? Perhaps I'll actually be happy back in Canada. Do I move elsewhere in Europe, England for example, and be an au pair there? Or should I get a place of my own, and work in a pub? Or do I stay in Holland, as an au pair for another year? There are 3 reasons I want to stay here .. and they are all human. Now, say I decide to stay here for another year, and these 3 reasons disappear out of my life, or things change, and I am no longer happy. There are so many 'What ifs?' going through my head.
Why can't someone just make up my mind for me?
Just tell me to stay, and I will...
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