RIP Baby

So I finally called my Daddy last night because I hadn't talked to him in awhile, due to him being on this weird new shift, and the 6 hour time difference. He tells me "we lost the dog!" What do you mean you lost the dog? Those dogs are too damn smart to just "get lost". No, she died. My fucking baby died and I didn't even get to say goodbye. The worst part is that she died the day after my birthday, October 4. They didn't want to tell me, they weren't going to tell me, they didn't want to "upset me". So what, were you just going to wait until I came back to Canada A YEAR FROM NOW and when I went looking for her, "ohh yeah.. she died!" 

WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE!?!!?

I don't understand how this happened. She was 12, Pal is only 6 or something and she would ALWAYS outrun him. Although, he does weigh a hell of a lot more than her but still. She was so healthy, so full of life. At least she died happy, peacefully, in the comfort of her own home. She just went to sleep, and never woke up. I guess that's good! I mean.. isn't that how we all want this to end?

I'm really not impressed with them not telling me when it first happened. Everyone knew, and nobody said anything. I broke down last night after he told me, obviously. And I went to bed early because I've been sick, and I just didn't want to deal with my thoughts, so sleep was the best medicine. I would wake up though, and my mind would be elsewhere.. but then she would drift back into my thoughts and I would remember that she was gone. The only thing that's comforting is the fact that I will see her again. 

RIP Brandy baby! I love you, and we're all going to miss you. 

She was the best dog EVER! 

In other news; Yes, I'm incredibly sick. It better fucking go away because I am going to Denmark on the 20th! To see a boy that I met on Couchsurfing whom I sort of have a crush on. It should be fun times! We talk alot and he's really nice :) 

I cannot wait. And he says that if it goes well, he will come here for New Years. Sweet! 

Anddd! Fabian (the Couchsurfer Lindy and I stayed with in Hamburg, Germany) is coming to visit on the 28th with Evelyn! I cannot wait for this either, they are so awesome and we're going to have such an awesome time!